Thirty-first chapter of the book :
A STORY OF THE WOMAN CYCLOPS
The one who by definition of people is mad - he is fearless, who can boldly look in the face of truth, who is capable to live as wants his heart, whose lives every day as though it is the last. And he begins his day in happiness and finishes - in happiness, that is the main quality name to which FEARLESSNESS.
Only the fear for himself forces the person to leave harmony - whether towards an impetuous pleasure or to an intolerable grief.
Fearlessness - to win against fear of life and destiny. But how is this possible, if possible at all? Where the fear hides? A long researches and supervisions showed that the fear hides in each cell of a human body and it accumulates there all life, moreover - transfers from generation to generation. A millennia of unbeaten fear, which saved up in your cells, given rise by pain and suffering, brought the mankind to a brink of precipice and crisis of human's inner world.
You were dissociated and became lonely. You don't know how to protect yourself and your identity from disintegration. Only a few on earth are capable of full realization. The others deceive themselves and amuse the consciousness by illusions or completely become isolated. Both - the one and another are doomed to death, only the first - to a slow one, and the second - to a fast.
People are looking for exits in most different self-deceptions. For example, the most popular self-deception among the people who are looking for abstention from something by efforts of will of other people. I made some interesting discoveries - if a person keeps a tight rein on himself and, by not own effort of will, abstains, in years he breaks, and a pendulum of lack of will deviates to the opposite side.
For example, a person was coded and five years didn't drink. In five years he will drink with such intensity with which didn't drink all these years, as much as constrained himself. The pressure of fight against himself increases, the person doesn't sustain and perishes. And the spiritual victory over fear and pain can be only the one which is reached without visible efforts of will.
You can't change yourself even for iota, but according to your desire God changes you. And what is necessary for this purpose that God would change and transform the energy of fear in the cells to an energy of fearlessness and pleasure. If you say to yourself: "I am glad" - nothing would change.
To allow to God work in you a freedom of heart is needed, it gives birth to different desires by which God corrects soul and body. You are releasing the desires, God gives a practice of life, through some fallings and take-offs sometimes very painful, but your conscience is open and it shows you the way.
And there are no other way! As they say: the sooner you will begin - the sooner you will finish, but nobody managed to pass the way of sufferings yet. Of course it is possible to delay time. Same as with operation - if doctor established that operation is necessary, if no possibility to stop a process of decomposition in a different way, it is better to agree to operational intervention at once. As well with a soul. God is your doctor.
If you agree to live without hypocrisy, to live by God's feelings - the Lord, through practice, opens for you the results of your life. He gives you not a collateral existence during lifetime, not a contemplation, but a direct participation in it.
If you, by means of a foreign will, get rid of own desires, crush them, you cease to live in the Divine will, you get for some time to a bondage of other person. You hope only on yourself! It is a way, but too long. For example - Odysseys for 20 years lived only by own will and will of the team, without God and he lost everything. But God spared his life. Odysseus returned to God's will, but he became different: he - through misfortunes - began to appreciate the happiness more and learned a true price of life..
But if you want an invasion of will of God into your life, it is necessary to hear your desires and not to hide them from yourself and other people, and this is most difficult. Sheltering of desires dresses a person in masks of hypocrisy and gives rise to a condemnation and denial of people, life itself, and - God.
When, in such way, person denies God, though he can speak about God, think of God and pray to him day and night, it won't help. In real his God wouldn't exist, and he will be switched off from an eternal stream of Life. Only being with God switches on a stream of Energy of Life. If person switches off God, this stream is disconnected.
In such person a fear revives, which, through the head, starts to consider and to analyze everything: "Where I go, why I go, am I right?" And all this before participation in any event. But analysis is necessary after. In the first case a fear works, it draws a bent vision of the world and life. In the second case there is an analysis of lesson and learning.
God is lost, and the world in soul is getting lost, fairy tale leaves and there is a materialism and practicalness. The fear invents its laws to garble own world under the world of God. But any law is right only for these who stands still and doesn't develop.
The laws of God are laws of expediency of developing processes, the laws of human are the laws of his fears, the dead dogmas. How it is possible to write laws of something what EVERY SECOND CHANGES?
So, from a lively stream of Life, from world of Light you moved to a dead stopped world of your consciousness or the world of shadows. The world of Light and God was rejected by you so long ago that the memory of it lies deeply in subconsciousness. Only the one who will be able to reach this world and to enter it, he destroy own body, pass through all torments of hell, through liberation and living through all desires, only this one can make his soul to come back in the real world, a primordial world, which now doesn't exist. All of you live in the world distorted by some sick fears of people.
If to look in the eyes of own truth - you will see a monster and only then you will be able to win against him. If you are able to realize own desires or voluntary with pleasure refuse them - to get rid of them in yourself, grow from them as from children's footwear, and you will have already nothing to wish - only then the Lord will be able to show His Desire of love through you.
Such person will reach an eternal life, return to the house of his Father. But for this purpose FEARLESSNESS is necessary. To become a will of God and to refuse own will eternally it is a fearlessness.
Many people, wishing to remake this world, took the first steps of fearlessness, trying to express themselves in this world, but then the world changed them. And a god of lie came to their heart.
Fearlessness - that is, having made a choice for God once, to remain faithful to it. That is when in your place and time outside and the space inside there is no lie.
And, while the Woman Cyclops was speaking, I remembered my friend known as a Forest-man, Berendey who lived in Moscow's forests. He built a fantastic town with towers, and thousands and thousands of people came to him. Everyone who came there, felt - that something happens to his soul, that he feel good though there are no conditions. People were attracted to this place. And now all of them forgotten about this place because Berendey went to a better world. Why?
I asked myself, I asked God. I asked people and received the answer which keeps within this words: IN THIS PLACE THERE WAS NO LIE. AND NOW HE IS NOT PRESENT, AND THE PLACE WITHOUT LIE IS TOO NOT PRESENT!
I saw the people who through music and songs express truth, but in their actions they lie to themselves. And it means there lives a fear in such person. And by means of fear he betrays the inner self. The Woman Cyclops started talking again in response to my reflections, she told me: "Your acquaintance constructed the towers and lived according to these towers. He wasn't afraid to speak and do as his soul wants. He was fearless, and therefore near him each person remembered his real self, and everything far-fetched and imaginary flew off. And now he left and a god of lie came to that place. The place doesn't exist any more as a place of power, and people got struck by fear, and they tried to forget about your Master, but you remember and hold it in the heart. Now his glade with the towers lives in your inner world. And when there will be a manifestation of New Earth he will appear, young and beautiful, a new Master of Russia!
There where lives lie people feel broken, tired as though lost something. And though a house is built beautifully and you fed with overseas fruits, in the heart of the owner lives a lie, and there is a wish to run from such house and place. The lie living in person creates round him a space of energy absorption, a black hole, and the people getting to it feel robbed.
The whole world of people sinks in lie and therefore a fear and dissociation reigns.
- Where lies a road to the House, the road to God, and who goes by this road? Tell me, rock of fearlessness.
The rock answered:
- The fearless people alone go on it, there are only a few of them, but their lamps always burn in darkness and lighting the way.
All these years you, Maria, looked for a truth in other people, trusted not to yourself, but to someone else's words, and then, with losses, ran away from the human lie. Don't listen to people anymore. Trust only to yourself!
-“Today the day and hour came for you when there is no need to run. Because, having realized fearlessness you let it in your heart. And the god of lie disappeared in it!”
The Woman Cyclops became silent. I sat as bewitched. I looked back and saw many people around me, and among them my passengers. A lot of new and unfamiliar faces appeared from somewhere.
“My God, again a mirage. Where I will put all of them? My ship is not made out of rubber!”
Only I thought so to myself - the Woman Cyclops raised her enormous hand, and I saw a drawing on the palm: three hyphens, and a big eye. From the eye a beam sparkled and cut through the darkness of night. I saw the faces of people. They were fine and courageous. The voice of the Woman Cyclops hooted as thousands of bells:
"Today is the day and hour came for you when there is no place and need to run. Because, having realized fearlessness, you let it in your heart. And the god of lie disappeared!"